I’m a board-certified physician, and I’m going on an ayahuasca journey

I’ve done some wild shit in my life.
Graduated med school.
Saved lives in the ER.
Built a coaching business from scratch while still working full-time.
Left behind a religion I was raised in.
Planned to move my entire family to another country.

But preparing for this?
Sitting in the middle of the Amazon jungle to drink a plant medicine and meet my shadow?

This might be the most intense thing I’ve ever done.

This Has Been Calling Me for Years

I didn’t recognize her voice at first.
But Mama Ayahuasca has been calling me for a long time.

Back when the Amazon was burning and I was watching smoke pour from the trees on TV, I remember thinking:

“I bet the cure for every disease we have is in that forest we’re destroying.”

Then, in residency, I had to give a talk on recreational drug use.
I learned about ayahuasca, not as a substance people abuse, but as a healing tool.
Used by people who want to recover. Return. Remember. Heal.

That was the first whisper.
The louder call came later.

After I became a mom.
After I sat with postpartum rage and grief.
After years of chronic anxiety and depression.
After coaching, therapy, meds, and still feeling like something deeper was trying to surface.

So I finally said yes.

I’m Not Going for a Trendy Experience. I’m Going to Heal.

I know what SSRIs feel like. I know what it’s like to function and still feel numb.
I’ve read the journals. I know the science.
But I also know the ache of knowing you’re not fully here.

This isn’t about curing something.
It’s about meeting myself in a way Western medicine hasn’t been able to facilitate.

This journey is about returning to truth.
To spirit.
To the parts of me that never got a chance to speak.

If You’ve Ever Wondered If There’s More…

If you’ve ever felt the pull to heal more deeply —
If you’ve ever questioned what “healing” even means outside of a diagnostic code —
If you’re just curious what it looks like when someone chooses an ancient path in search of a new self…

You’re not alone.

I’m going.
With an open heart.
A deep desire to come home to myself.
And no idea what’s on the other side of this.

I’ll Share What I Can

Maybe not in real time (I’ll be off-grid in the jungle, after all).
But I promise to share what I learn. Honestly. Intentionally. In my own voice.

Because healing doesn’t always come in neat little clinical packages.
Sometimes it comes from the Earth. From ceremony. From surrender.

And I want you to know: you’re allowed to seek healing your way, too.

Want to follow this journey?

Come with me — virtually.
I’ll be sharing reflections, lessons, and whatever I’m ready to speak aloud both on Instagram and in my email list.

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This isn’t just about one ceremony.
It’s about what happens when we choose to meet ourselves fully — no matter what it looks like.

If you're on your own healing path, or just curious about where this one leads...
I’d love to have you with me.